Queen

Radiant like the sun she lights up the room
She walks in Beauty as Lord Bryon wrote
No one holds a candle to her sexiness.
She is a genius like Albert Einstein
Her beauty lies in the keenness of her mind.

She is a queen.

She struts through your life like a dream.
She seems like an illusion.
She has impeccable taste.
She is a faithful friend.

She is a queen.

She is unpretentious about her looks.
She is humble in her intellect.
There is no limit to what she can do.
She can make any of your dreams come true.
Her potential is rarely seen.

She is a queen.

The Shadow

I look at my soul in the shadow of itself.

To the past that has made me

The present that is me.

The future that will become me.

I revisit my heart with all its wombs.

In my writing I show the healing of myself.

With my eyes, I can now see, the new and exciting me.

Someone whom GOD has touched with talent.

I look at my soul in the shadow of myself.

And the picture is now clear.

I have found myself.

In the shadow of me.

Walk with me

Take my hand and walk with me.

Make this marriage a journey.

Lead me to the ocean so blue and crystal clear.

Take my hand towards your heart, hold me near.

Shower me with flowers that bloom after an April rain.

Stick with me through the field of thorns.

Look at me when you are lost and torn.

Revel in my beauty and wonderful smile.

Hold me for all time.

Take my heart on this journey with you.

Love me when the moon has lost it glow.

When it no longer snows.

Lead me to the land of destiny.

To the end of our journey.

Where I will spend the rest of my life with you.

Walk with me for an eternity.

Imagery

In my mind lives the perfect man; he is a figment of my imagination.

He shelters me from any heartache and pain.

He smiles at the mere mention of my name.

His eyes stare into me and capture my soul.

His voice calms me, although he is a part of my imagery.

He is a figment of me.

In the physical form he does not exist and without him I am amiss.

In my mind he helps me get through the day-to-day of the world.

I am his only woman, his number one girl.

In my mind he appears to be, the perfect man for me.

He is a fantasy and he is my imagery.

Canvas of You

You inspire me with your charm and creativity.

Your triumph and your spirit move me.

I am stimulated by the canvas of you.

By your eyes so full promise and care.

Your smile so loving and complete.

Your muscles and slender physique.

I stand before the world painting a canvas of you.

In my poems, you can find traces of you.

Remnants of your memory tapping my mind.

And your keen ability to make feel as though I am one of a kind.

You don’t even know what you do that makes me spend my moments completing the canvas of you.

CENSORED SELF

I hide from myself.
Hiding my tears from the pain.
Hiding the laughter to steal the joy.
I hide from myself.

Taking the words that flow from my lips.
Tossing them aside into the gray sky.
Taking the wisdom that immerses my brain.
Forsaking it for the freedom to be insane.

I hide from myself.
From my freedom.
From my laughter.
From my tears.

I have censored myself
Through out the years.
Who am I?
Who is the woman inside of me?

I hid from myself.
To become what you wanted.
To become someone else
I have censored myself.

I smile

I smile whenever I think of you.

I tremble at the thought of losing you.

I cried tears of joy when you said, “I love you.”

I cry tears of pain when I am mad at you.

But I smile whenever I think of you.

I defend your name and honor in the presence of strangers.

I touch you sometimes to make sure you are real.

I plan our life together everyday.

And I smile whenever I think of you.

I travel the world to be near you.

I talk about you incessantly.

I pray that you will love me forever.

And you share my smile when I think of you.

The Pulse

I stand before you on the pulse,
the pulse of Greatness.

My fingertips feel the beating of my future,
my success, my Greatness.

I am on the pulse of impact, of change
I am on the pulse of Greatness.

My eyes see the vision,
the forest among the trees.
the Greatness.

I hear the sound of success,
rolling in like a tidal wave on the Pacific.

The pulse of Greatness is near.

My voice quivers with excitement
when I talk about you, my future.

I am on the pulse,
the pulse of Greatness.

Killing Me Softly

Your sexiness is killing me softly.
I am melting away
Tearing apart at the seams
With desire for you.

Your smile is making me weak
You dance across my mind
Each night before I sleep.

I can’t take looking at you
Staring at you, wanting you
I can’t help myself I am lusting after you.

Your sexiness is killing me softly.
With each breathe
I think more about you.

There is nothing I can do.
I shall die in my desire for you.

You are killing me softly.

Where have you been?

I close my eyes
Imagining your smile
I smell your cologne
I touch your soft skin.

I close my eyes
Hoping to see you again
Where have U been?

I lick my lips
Tasting your kiss
Tugging at your heart
Tapping your soul.

I lick my lips
Hoping to see you again
Where have you been?

My soul cries happily
Yearning for you
For your eyes to captivate me
I tingle at the thought of you.

My soul cries happily
Hoping to see you again
Where have you been?

A piece of heaven
In the flesh
Where have you been?
Will I see you again?

Coming Home

Dismantled
I reached inside of me
to search for my soul
my true self.

I plunged into the depths of my existence
asking myself who am I?
Why am I here?
What am I doing with my life?

I circled my heart time and time again
to heal the pain of past relationships.
I screamed their names one last time
to release them from my heart.

I removed the circles under my eyes
from the lonely nights crying.
I lifted my bosom to the air and
took a deep breathe to cleanse me.

I traveled through my mind
replacing fear with freedom.
My soul burst through my chest
like a beam of light.

Amassing the new pieces of me
from outside myself.
I came to rest inside of me.
I came home.

My Oblivion

Here I sit my eyes blinded by the remnants of beer.

My hair tousled atop my head.

My arms heavy from the weight of the world.

I shut myself out to my oblivion

where I will join a new world

Where my arms are lighten from their load

Where my vision is clear

Where my hair is neat and complete.

Where reality does not exist.

In my oblivion, I can be shielded from pain

I can write for hours at a time and never go insane.

I can find myself, reclaim myself and repair myself.

I can take the real me off the shelf.

In my oblivion I can be the one person that I want to be

I get to be me.

The Scent of You

I could smell you
when I entered the room.

I could sense your presence
when you were near.

I could taste your lips on mine.
I could hold onto the image of you for all time.

I imagined you loving me and me loving you.
Oh, how I could smell you.

I wanted to taste sensuality the of your lips
and feel your hands on my hips.

I could hear your breathe on my neck.
As you stood near me on the deck.

I could smell you before I saw you
I knew that I wanted you.

I smile when I think about you
and the smell of you.

Oh, how I could smell you.

Elusive U

I am at my wits end with you; usually I know what to do.

My usual tactics give me no results there is no reading you.

Sometimes you say things waiting for me to jump on that train.
Then other times you distance yourself and drive me insane.

I don’t know what to do.

Maybe, I should use something simple to approach you.

Something from my childhood years like, a note saying, do you like me too?

Then I would get an answer and know what to do.

But with you right now, I don’t have a clue.

You are not an open book to me; you escape me.

I think I want to test the waters with you.

But at this rate, I will never really know you.

U will remain elusive U.

Take A Bow

Lost and alone
I wondered the world
Waiting for someone
To rescue me

Tear stained face
With fatigued eyes
And clinched fist
I searched for him

Feeble limbs
And tattered shoes
I stumbled through
Life waiting for you

The sun peaked through
The clouds with a smile
A path appeared
In the distance

Rescuing me from myself
Wiping my tears dry
Strengthen my limbs
Leading me with love

You gave me new hope
New shoes to walk to you
You gave me your heart
Take a bow because you gave me you.

I See You

Averted glances
Wondering eyes
Simple kiss
Daunting smiles

I see you

Staring at you continuously
Wanting to touch you
Holding onto the image of you
Grasping your invisible figure

I see you

In my mind’s eye
You dance with the perfect grace
You talk about me incessantly
You love me for me.

I see you

In my heart
Where I can change you
Where you can be
Whomever I choose

I see you

Sadness

Sadness caresses my body
like strong arms
holding me tight

it binds me

my tear drops are like rain
flowing free without
any form or frequency

sadness controls me

I try to shake it away
but the hold is tight
my heart is getting in the way

it controls me

Broken by you
in pieces and bits
of love

sadness caresses me

I still remember

in my mind
I remember every
word you ever
spoke to my heart

in my heart
I still feel the pain
of your love
lost in time

in my eyes
you see the remnants
of a shattered dream
from the love of you

in my arms
you feel the weight
of hands that have
held together a broken heart.

my smile has
become a permanent
frown and my love
has run astray.

but I still remember
the day, you told me
that you loved me.

I still remember
the day, you held me
in your arms
I still remember
the day, you cheated on me
and destroyed my family

so sad, too bad
that I still remember
the day

when I thought you
destroyed me.

Evolution of Me

My eyes were once blinded by a tainted love.
My ears closed to the sounds of infidelity.
But before where I was blind, I can now see.

I am free; I am an evolution of me.

I have heard the voice of another man,
where there were once deaf ears.
I have become happy and
replaced my weary tears.

I am free; I am an evolution of me.

Now I find myself smiling for no reason at all and
then I realize I am thinking about you.
We talk incessantly for hours at a time and
images of you move through my mind.

I am evolving, I am free, and I am an evolution of me.

Your smile melts me like ice cream on a warm summer’s day.
You stare at me with nothing particular nothing to say.

But you speak the language of freedom with your silence.
My vision no longer cloudy, but clearly guided.

I am evolving into me, I am free.

I stand before you with an open heart once bound by chains.
Asking you to do the same.
We are free to become what is now to be.
An evolution of you and me.

Open Arms

I stand before you
with open arms
embracing you

I stand before your
tall green trees
smelling the scent of pine

I stand before your
vast oceans
swimming into the depths of me

I stand before you
with open arms
embracing me.

I stand before myself
with widen eyes
and great expectations

I stand before myself
with a brilliant mind
a Renaissance woman in the making.

I stand before myself
with beauty and elegance
in a mirror of happiness

I stand before me
with open arms
embracing myself.

Genesis

I walk the path
and pass the doors
of my life.

Love, pain, and heartache
form the doorway to my heart.

Happiness, laughter and tears
form the doorway to my soul.

Cleverness, astuteness and intellect
form the doorway to my mind.

Prodigious, spiritual, Renaissance
Form the genesis of me.

Wicked

Her walk makes your head turn.
Her voice is captivating
Her eyes stare into your soul.

Wicked

Her hands make your skin tingle.
Her mind stuns you.
Her body is enticing

Wicked.

She marks you in her mind.
She flirts with you all the time.
She begins to execute her plan
Of getting her man.

She is wicked.

Circling like an eagle after his prey
She seizes the moment and captures the day
She takes you by surprise with her gentle kiss.
The thought of her is heavenly bliss.

She is wicked.

You dream of her at night.
She is never out of your sight.
She entangles you in her web of mystery.

Until her taste is complete.

She is wicked.

She tosses you aside like yesterday’s news.
Leaving empty hearts singing the blues.

Wicked.

A Taste of You

I want to see your face awaiting me at love’s door.

I want to hear your footsteps creak on my hardwood floor.

I want to smell your scent throughout my bed.

On your chest I want to rest my head.

I want the taste of you and the feeling of love you belong too.

I want to smile whenever you appear and have you miss me when I am not here.

I want you to hold me and say it will be ok; I want you to protect me everyday.

I want to hold your hand and feel destiny in your fingertips.

I want to taste the softness of your lips.

I want the taste of you; let me begin by loving you.

The Lowest Point

I wake up with a tear streamed face,
To find my clothes strewn about every place.
I try to be strong for my mind’s sake.
However, I don’t know how much more pain I can take.
I feel as though you ripped out my heart with your bare hands.
As though you never meant our vows taken as woman and man.

I struggle to the mirror and take a long hard stare.
My eyes are blood-shot and I have tousled hair.
I pick up this razor and hold it to my wrist.
I want to end this existence with one sharp twist.
Just then the phone rings and awakens me.
It is you my dear saying you still love me.
I realized what I have allowed you to do to me.
I am at my lowest point and I can no longer fall.

I have been waiting weeks and months for this very call.
Now you are saying the things I have always wanted to hear.
But it took my pain and attempted suicide to get here.
What have I allowed you to do to me?
I have given you too much credit and power over me.
How the hell did I get here?

I hang up the phone and prepare for your visit.
Upon your arrival I will let you know
That it is time to go.

I can no longer subject myself to your abuse.
Because in the end I always lose.
So as I open the door and you smile back at me.
I tell you not approach or even touch me.
Don’t cross the doorway for that is my line in the sand.
I have realized you do not deserve to be my husband.
So take your I’m sorry and all your lies and walk out that door.
You have taken me to my lowest point and
I am now rising from the floor.

Wasted Years

I think of the time before I met you.
The days minutes, hours, I spent singing the blues.
When my heart was broken by gigolos and playboys.
The times when I allowed myself to be someone’s toy.
There were moments when I wanted to stop myself.

To behave myself

To respect myself.

Those were the wasted years,
the times when I shed so many tears.

When I knew nothing about love.
And I prayed to the heavens above.
To take me out of my misery.
To end the madness that had become me.

Those were the wasted years,
when I shed so many tears.

Today I still cry but they are tears of joy.
I smile when I see your eyes in our baby boy.
I want to hold you all the time.
Because I cannot believe you are mine.

It is like a dream come true.
That started the day I met you.
I reminiscence on the wasted years
when I shed so many tears.

I shake my head at the time lost.
To find you, I had to pay the cost.
Of a broken heart and insurmountable pain.
Although I lost some years it is you that I have gained.

Now I know that I had to shed so many tears
To grow in our love,
after those wasted years.

Shadow Moon

In the shadow of the moon, I roam about the streets searching for you.

For my new love, my true love, life’s love.

I walk the alleys looking for someone to replace you.

Yet all I find is scum and the remnants of men, who are not equal to you.

I emerge from the darkness into the new moonlight.

Which guides me on my search of the night.

I search for love and hope its true.

Hoping to replace the emptiness in my heart left by you.

I walk the street passing the bars, restaurants and dance halls.

Stopping at every door, listening for love’s call.

Yet my ears hear no answer and my feet began to get weak.
I continue to walk through the streets under the shadow of the moon.

Searching my world for the substitute of you.

Distance

In the distance
I hear you laughing

I imagine your smile
Captivating me.

In the distance
I hear your voice

I imagine your strong arms
Holding me.

In the distance
I see your eyes

Full of life
Banishing the pain.

In the distance
I see us

In love
Forever

Crave

My body tingles from the thought of you.
The image of you dances through my mind.
I lick my lips to taste your last kiss.
I smile because I know that without me you are amiss.

My body trembles at the thought of you
Caressing, holding and loving me.
The thought of us engaged in a melody
so wild and free.

My head spins with the dizziness of your sex appeal.
Sometimes you seem so unreal.
I try to tame myself and stop me from envisioning you.
I am mesmerized and I shake at the sight of you.

I crave the taste of you.
The touch of you
The smell of you
I crave you.

Celebration of Me!

Today I will celebrate all my glory and me.

I celebrate my bosom so full and complete.

I celebrate my hips or the lack thereof.

I celebrate my lips from which wisdom speaks.

I celebrate my eyes through your soul I can see.

Today, is a day of rejoice because I celebrate me!

I celebrate my blackness in a world based on hate.

I celebrate my womanhood in an uneven corporate place.

I celebrate my heritage and my family.

Today is the day, I have celebrated me!

Discovering Me

It has taken awhile for me to bloom.
But I have become a beautiful rose.
I have sharpen my skills like a knife.
I flow like the ocean when I speak.

I have discovered me.

It took years of insecurity, heartache and pain.
But I remained hopeful through it all.
I kept faith in my heart, even when it was filled with pain.
I prayed for security.

Then I discovered me.

Now I walk with confidence and self-esteem.
I float on clouds, because I dream.
Of a time when I can say, that love has found its way back into my heart.

I love what I have become because of my discovery.
I thank the Lord, that he has helped me discover me.

Stranger

I became a stranger to myself the day I threw rocks at your door.
When I tossed pebbles at your window, like jellybeans on the floor.

I became a stranger when I drove an hour to surprise you.
And there was no sight of you.

I became a stranger to myself when I took you back.
And remorse or forgiveness you lacked.

When I could look you in the eyes and see through your lies.
But never changed my feelings for you, the stranger and stranger I grew.

I became a stranger to myself the night I let you back into my heart.
To break, kill and rip it apart.

I did not know that woman crying at the foot of your bed.
The woman who wished she was dead.

I did not know the woman, who believed it not to be true.
That you loved someone else too.

I was outside myself the day I killed you.
But inside my heart had already died as you had killed me too.

When I look back to see, I had become a stranger to me.

Warrior

Once upon a time I was a slayer of the dragons of love.

The dragon of pain, which made my heart drip the reddest blood.

The dragons of disappointment and jealousy, those made me stop trusting anyone.

The dragon of fear that made me shield my heart.

Then I met a King who possessed more poison than a Cobra.

Who sucked the love from my heart like a leech?

The dragon reappeared and I was eaten alive.

My heart was no longer the warrior I took years to train.

It was a mangled mess inside a woman, insane.

I joined him to become his Queen but to him,

I was a possession, a piece of property not a human being.

When I left my King, I was a shy peasant girl.

Setting out into his Kingdom and the rest of the world.

I see the dragons of love each and everyday.

But I no longer have the strength to slay.

I am a woman conquered, beaten and wounded.

I am no longer a warrior, my rein has ended.

? for me

How can I love someone who does not love me?

Who does not even know me?

How can I use your name in sentences like I know U?

I have never even met U?

How can I talk to U in my dreams?

But in reality never hear your voice.

How can I love something that is all in my head?

Someone who has not materialized?

Someone who can not touch me?

Love me?

Hold me?

How did I become this woman?

Living in my world of fantasy

Can your answer that ? for me.

Hopeless

I am hopelessly in love with love.

I am in love with the feeling

With the red roses

The sweet candy

The tender kisses.

I am hopeless.

I dream at night of a new love.

That I can embrace

I can see

I can feel.

I am hopeless.

The sky seems dark everyday.

I can’t see any light

There appears to be no end in sight.

2 to my loneliness

I sit here,

hopeless

I Found You

I thought there was nothing for me,
no one to hold me, touch me or love me.
I thought I would spend my life alone.

Then I found you.

You provided me with security.
You gave me a reason to believe in love,
a reason to live again.

On this day together, a life we will begin.

I thought there was nothing for me,
no one to hold me, touch me or caress me.
I thought I would never feel the passion
of a kiss and true love I would miss.

Then I found you.

As I stand here next to you,
embracing our love.
I am committed to you and
thank the Lord that
I found you.

Remedy

Whenever my heart aches I think of you.
You make my pain go away.
Your smile brightens my everyday.
I am your biggest fan.
One day, you will be my man.

You are my remedy.

Whenever I hang my head low, you hold me tight and never let go.
You offer me more than just words.
You listen to me and I am heard.
You make me feel special and unique.

You are my remedy.

When I shed any tears.
Your gentle touch wipes away my fears.
Your arms hide me from the world.
At that moment, I feel as if I am your girl.
I am hoping you continue to save me.

You are my remedy.

Destiny

When we met it was a meant to be.

You touched my soul like sweet destiny.

Love smiled upon me when you looked into my eyes.

There I stood mesmerized.

Your voice was so smooth and calm.

I knew my heart you could not harm.

I felt your hand and became numb.

I was reassured you were the one.

The day I met you, destiny engulfed me.

You are a treasure, my sweet angel sent to me,

You are my destiny.

The Look

You stole my heart with one simple look.

I stopped breathing and fell into love.

You made me believe in everything,

Then I knew that true love was not a dream.

With one look you made my world change.

You did not even say your name.

It took no words to convey your message.

I felt the warmth in my heart and soul.

Your look showed me what’s truly behind you.

A man searching for love and it’s simplicity.

A man searching for the only woman he will ever need.

Your look let us know that for one moment

We would hold on to each other forever.

Losing My Mind

Everyday I open myself up
for additional wombs and pain,
I feel as though I can never
fall in love again.
Every night I cry myself to sleep and
pray to the Lord for sanity to keep.
My mind is weary and
my body has been abused.
I have never felt more used.
You have drained my energy from me and
my heart needs a new home and a family.
I can no longer take the pain because
I am going insane.

I get the shakes when you are not around and
in my body I can feel my heart pound.
I love you more than anything in the world, and
I thought I was your only girl.
To my surprise I was one of three and
I never thought you could hurt me.
Sometimes I wanted to kill you and
other times I wanted to hold you in my arms.
Forgiving you for all the misery and the harm.
Yet my pride won’t let me call you,
even though I can’t let you go.
My heart is suffering
more than you will ever know.

I am losing my mind over you,
and there is not a damn thing
I can do.

Your Words

You once told me that words were your weapons,
but I never thought you would use them against me.
I never thought I would feel the piercing in my belly or the cut on my cheek.

So hateful
So strong,
Your WORDS.

I thought we were to love one another and
accept our faults and imperfections.
But it seems as though your weapons
have caused you to not accept me.

So hateful
So strong,
Your WORDS.

I never thought I could love you as much as I do,
yet my heart aches from your words.
I try to get over it,
but in my mind I hear your words.

So hateful
So strong,

YOUR WORDS.

My Life is better without you

My life is better without you,
But I had to leave you to understand this.
No matter what happens it is you that I will miss.
My life is better without you.

My days are shorter and my nights are longer,
Each and everyday I am growing stronger.
My life is better without you.

I dream of eternal bliss and innocent kisses
With handsome princes.
I sometimes curse when I think about you.
My life is better without you.

My days are challenging, but
I have the desire to succeed.
There is no limit to how far I will go.
My life is better without you.

You can buy me materials things,
like diamonds and furs

But can you truly love me?
Or will you continue to run away?

I realize more and more each day
My life is better without you.

What am I to do?

What is a heart to do?
When all that it has learned to love is gone
When all the heart has are holes to fill
And no more love to give.

What is a mind to do?
When there are no more pleasant thoughts
When all it knows is punishment and pain
And nothing but fantasies provides some intellectual gain.

What is a body to do?
When there is no one to caress it
Or make it feel alive.
And the echoes of yearning it can no longer hid.

What are the hands to do?
When they no longer have anyone to hold
and with each day they grow old.

What am I to do
without you?

I Love You

I miss you so much that words could never express my emptiness.

Sometimes I stare into space, thinking tender thoughts of only you.

Telling myself you are only thinking of me too.

The days seem so long and the nights are forever.

I am counting the hours, minutes and seconds we will be together.

So much love is expressed between us two.

When I am without you, I do not know what to do.

Time ticks away so slowly, that it seems as if the world has stopped.

Without you my heart has dropped.

As the days go by, I anticipate seeing your face.

Because in my heart you have forever found a space.

I Love You.

Tremors in my heart

When I first saw you my heart begin to melt,
then and there your special touch I felt.
Like morning dew on fresh spring grass,
you have captured my heart and I am falling fast.
My mind wanders to the day when we can wed and
I often reminiscence of you and I in bed.
Your touch is like wild fire and
your kisses cause much desire.

I feel tremors in my heart whenever you are near and my feelings for you are oh so clear.
I have never loved any man as much as I love you,
and with you I only know of happiness and
not feeling blue.
You have given me the gift of joy and
taken away my pain,
and more love is all that I have to gain.
When I am without you, I dream of you and
thank God for sending me an angel
in the form of you.

My eyes light up when ever I hear your name and
my voice quivered when
I found out that you felt the same.
These tremors in my heart will never leave
because you cause after shock
like you wouldn't believe.

I wished for you

I wished for you and you appeared from my
fountain of dreams.

You made my fantasy a reality.

Your eyes are like golden jewels

And your smile brightens any cloudy day.

Your mind is keen and your intellect strong.

Your words provide me with intellectual stimulation all night long.

I wished for you and you appeared from my fountain of dreams.

Making my fantasy a reality.

My Love for you

I love you with all my deepest feeling from the
bottom of my heart.
I love you till death do us part.
Those may sound like marriage vows that is true, but I love you very much, yes I do.

My love for you is just to great to describe
But yes my love is true.
I care for you deeply, yes I do.

I long for the hours that I will meet you again.
When my boat docks at the shore
I hope to see you there.
To see your loving face awaiting my arrival.

And when I arrive we will share
the rest of our lives together,
As man and wife.